Its been one of those weeks for you. You know the kind.
The to-do list is long. You're looking at each item-- a thousand small tasks sitting with each one-- and thinking to yourself, "How? How am I going to do all this?"
Breathe. Take that moment. Do one more thing.
Anxiety wants to tell you that you can't possibly get it done. You can't make an impact. You can't make a difference. Anxiety wants you to sit down and spin your wheels with all sorts of thoughts you were never meant to hold in your tiny hands, "Am I good enough? Do I have what it takes? Can I really make this happen?"
You. You're the right person for the job. This list of things for you to do isn't accidental. You're more equipped than you think. You're more capable than you imagine.
I know these things about you because I daily speak these truths over my own life. I call my husband and I find myself drowning in self-pity as I whine into the phone, "I can't do it. There's too much. I feel incapable."
It's a pity party. A short dedication, a party ballad, to all the ways I think I cannot possibly make it happen this week. I'm good at hosting these parties. They do not last long since my husband never wants to attend these parties of mine. I can sit and eat my pity cake solo or I can grow up and go forward.
But then I sit down. I do the first thing. I do something that seems completely manageable. It leads to something else. Soon enough, the tension eases up. I realize, "I've got this. I can do this. I am equipped for this."
You've got this. What you have to make sure you do is actually show up for it. Show up and then keep showing up. Fear wants to draw a map for you but it won't ever lead to a good and proper destination. It will always leave you lost. Aimless. Striving.
Babe, this life isn't about striving. I'm young but I can say that with the fullest confidence. If you're striving at this moment then I know more about you than you think: I know you're exhausted. I know you are trying to perform. I know you are pushing things out there into the world just hoping they will stick.
It will burn you out. Because you were made for brighter things than constantly trying to measure up to a standard that isn't real.
You're not drowning. You're not too far gone either. Just take that spare breath- it's always there waiting for you. Make a list. Pick one thing to tackle.
Just do one thing.